The script in makings

my life

just because your the smallest doesnt mean February 22, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Hali Heartbeat @ 7:21 pm

you have to be the loudest

tommorow, everything might change

life may be harder or easier

planets might become inline with the sun

the world may find peace

or someone may learn to do a math problem they couldnt before

no matter how small or big the change is

it can have a lifetime affect

think about that next time you make a decision

 

I thought I might get one more chance February 13, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Hali Heartbeat @ 11:13 pm

I thought I might get one more chance to be with you.

I thought I might have one more chance to see her.

I thought I would have one more chance to say I love you.

I thought I might have one more chance to spend time with you.

I thought I might get one more chance to appologize.

I thought I might get one more chance to hear your laughter.

I thought I might get one more chance to do alot of things.

see what people dont get about chances is that they are exactly that. you always have a 50/50 chance. you might get your way. you might not. when your too late to take your chance you are left with regret. left with unsaid words.

I spend my nights talking to those I thought I might get one more chance to talk tothrough praying. I spend my days having constant reminders of their memory. the hurt caused by thinking you have one more chance when you dont is very hard to move past.

I thought I might get one more chance to say goodbye.

I didnt. I never said goodbye to any of them.

Atleast not how I wanted to. so dont think you have one more chance. you might now.

I thought I might get one more chance.

 

Forgiving you, she’s stronger than I am February 11, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Hali Heartbeat @ 1:39 pm

She’s beautiful in her simple little way
She don’t have too much to say when she gets mad
She understands she don’t let go of anything
Even when the pain gets really bad
Guess I should’ve been more like that

You had it all for a pretty little while
And some how you made me smile when I was sad
You took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart
Then you realized you wanted what you had
I guess I should’ve been more like that

I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserved
I guess I should’ve been more like her

Forgiving you, she’s stronger than I am
You don’t look much like a man from where I’m at
It’s plain to see desperation showed it’s truth
You love her and she loves you with all she has
I guess I should’ve been more like that

I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserverd
I guess I should’ve been more like her

She’s beautiful in her simple, little way

<3 Miranda Lambert.

This song…God this song hits home in so many ways.

 

song in pictures February 4, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Hali Heartbeat @ 1:20 pm

In fields where nothing grew but weeds,
I found a flower at my feet,

Bending there in my direction,
I wrapped a hand around its stem,

I pulled until the roots gave in,
Finding now what I’ve been missing,

But I know…
So I tell myself, I tell myself it’s wrong.

There’s a point we pass from which we can’t return.
I felt the cold rain of the coming storm.

All because of you,
I haven’t slept in so long.

When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore where I can let my hair down,

I’ll follow your voice,
All you have to do is shout it out.

Inside my hands these petals browned;
dried up falling to the ground,

but it was already too late now.
I pushed my fingers through the earth,

returned this flower to the dirt;
so it could live, I walked away now.
But I know…

Not a day goes by when I don’t feel this burn.
There’s a point we pass from which we can’t return.
I felt the cold rain of the coming storm…

All because of you,
I haven’t slept in so long.
When I do I dream
of drowning in the ocean;
longing for the shore
where I can lay my head down.
I’ll follow your voice;
all you have to do is
shout it out!

All because of you.
All because of you.

All because of you
I believe in angels.
Not the kind with wings,
no, not the kind with halos;
the kind that bring you home
when love becomes a strange place.
I’ll follow your voice;
all you have to do is
shout it out!

<333 Rise Against

“The Good Left Undone”

also

a few of my new favorite pictures

My Desktop Background



 

go now and live February 2, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Hali Heartbeat @ 11:18 pm

i am ready

i am ready

i am colorblind “ready to live”

the journey starts here

and never ends

and i am taking my first step

 

There is always hope February 2, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — Hali Heartbeat @ 11:55 am

very true.

always